life is beautiful-

2008-03-07T06:44:00.001-08:00

i really miss you alot alot..
though i tried not to but guess it didnt help.
i dont know who else i can look for when im troubled,
or who would understand how im feeling..
its rather irritating to get upset over something trivial so many times,
more irritating for someone to listen to it the same amount of time.
but you never seem to be so...
i want to hear your voice.
remember, you're the only one which can calm me down.
theres one night left,
by why does it seem like a year instead..
counting down every now and then..

2008-03-07T05:55:00.000-08:00

HALO PEOPLE!
hahas. here comes the rare guest!
cause im realli.... "lonely, i am so lonely..."
my two boyfriends went to racky places and the crazy women went to US.
(acc to yanjun, xiaobai and teh =X)
think she's gonna bomb them bahs. cheng... pls wake up!!

OH! CHINA MAN KNOW HOW TO SAY YO!
love them man!
why ZiYun and ZeYu both is ZY but ZEYU rocks more =//
(ziyun's so gonna kill me)
had some crazy days of laughing wif teh, linglong, lovesick one and xiaobai.
oh, not forgetting gwendy and her mr sexy. tsk.
damn sexy! nose will bleed! hahas.

ohyeah! today was CROSS COUNTRY cum SPORTS CARNIVAL cum cum cum..
hahahas.
I GOT 11TH POSITION!!! ahhhh.
almost 10! but crazy sia, all chiong like free...
almost cannot make it lah..
MAMACHONG GOT SECOND FOR TEACHER RACE!! omg!
she rocks too!!

and i wanna make an official announcement,
3/3 OFFICIALLY ROCKS MY SOCKS!
everyone was damn supportive lah can.
and special thanks to our all rounder, MATIIN!!!! yea. you rawk!
he is damn gentlemen! hahas.
and... WE GOT FIRST FOR ULTIMATE FRISBEE UPPERSEC!!
this year 3/3 own lah can, be it results or class spirit.

and im roasted! omg. im seriously RED.
ahh.

ohyeah, i finally finished the english essay.
my big masterpiece! see see see!

Sum and substance

Wrinkled face, drooping skin, with what seemed like only bones beneath, sitting on a sofa of smooth silk made him looked even more fragile and weak. Yes, he was weak. He was panting hardly, as if trying to take in all the air around him. He could not move his body freely and did not bother to. Two still glistening eyes set place on the ceiling above, the only sign of life seen on this old man.

Above the cold ceiling, images started to appear. His face was replaced with a warm smile, a smile he had lost for decades. He started to smile like a kid, a kid he once was.
The background was in green colour, a type of green which symbolizes youth, everlasting energy and joy. A small boy ran through the tall grass, chuckling and randomly turning back to check if his parents were catching up. The air was filled with the scent of love and warmth, enough to keep one warm during a cold winter. The boy cuddled in his parents big hands, the hands that would always be there for him.

The next moment, the boy grew into a tall and charming man. He was in a black suite bringing out his superior status amongst people. He dragged his feet through the cement pavement, it was narrow, cramp and dark. He arrived at a door which seemed so familiar- his home. There was an old couple. The two old ones' face lit up as they saw this rare guest appear at the door. Ignoring the couple's change of expression, he walked towards them with a malicious grin and eyes so cold. He made them sign a piece of paper written: “transfer of property”, using every way a human with moral value would never do. Leaving the two poor souls sobbing with shattered hearts, at the monster they have created.

The heart-wrenching scene was replaced with a solemn silence. The young and charming man before turned into an old man, limping from side to side in a grand office which once belonged to him. A tall and young man in front of him, with great resemblance, face filled with looks of disgust. He pushed away the man, to him like an obstacle, and left as if nothing had taken place.

Tears of remorse and guilt rolled down the man face as he stared at that ceiling, with mixtures of many emotions and thoughts. He finally knew why his life had to end this way, alone, with not even a soul to see him off. Retribution! What he had done to his own parents had happened to him.

Tired and unable to think anymore, he slowly closed his eyes shut, his breathe slowed down, calmly and peacefully, till it stopped.

2008-02-28T05:03:00.000-08:00

how many years have i not been blogging?
yeah, ca1 i over. finally. but not the time to slack.
lost many precious marks due to those retarded mistakes.
many stuffs happened over these few days..
and i think theres some things i have to claify..

firstly, sorry to hilmie, prashan and amir, and many others who were affected one way or another. millions of sorry.
you may think im spastic, superficial bla bla so on and so forth.
but i just gotta let you guys knw that i DID NOT paoto.
i was just asking about sports carnival and she sad we cnt be excused cause we missed TWO trainings which was the maximum we could.
then i asked abt band concert and she said no.
she said even mc also try not to, so i just asked her what about prashan's mc.
and thats where she knew that prashan didnt go training cos he was sick.
and i didnt know that prashan did not tell her.
she was super angry and wanted to see him. i was only supposed to inform him.
after i got news, i even went up to some of you to tell you.
its not that im saying behind your back right?
was it a mistake? was miss sham not suppose to know?
nobody told me that. of cos i didnt mean it was right either.
but i am just wondering how am i suppose to be right?

am i suppose to be responsible for all these that happened?
am i the cause of it? if i am, seriously pls tell me.
dont write ur name i dun care, just let me know can?
i dont wanna stay in a unit like that.
you guys are the reason why im still in npcc.
so tell me. pls.

2007-12-22T01:52:00.000-08:00

HALLO PEOPLE! im finally back from malaysia!!

you all must have missed me alot =XX

let me update what i've been doing. hees.

day 1

went GENTING!! took a bus up..

damn tiring can. woke up at like 3+? rahh.

sat for like 7hours on the bus..

i seriously admire the driver lor...

the route up to genting is like freaking steep and the turns are all quite sharp.

sit until damn scared lah. =XX

but still arrived safely (the~) damn cold! its like 15 degrees celcius..

met up with LAOSHI!! hahas. first time in travelling with laoshi.

damn fun lah. everyone know how crappy he can get o.0

and i can see that zidane(his son) has inherited his genes.

example:

act cool-

got so cold?

hahas. another one.

zidane saw this pic on a pole near a ride, and this is what he said.

"daddy! you see! wanna go toilet must go up or go down. so funny."

lame right?

hahas.

actually wanted to go outdoor theme park de.. what a waste.

look at the freaking weather..

. outdoor theme park.

outside my hotel room window.

damn foggy, so i guess it was for safety. wasted.

its damn cold there lah. and didnt brimng any form of cold wear.

the warmest i have is cardigan? hahas.

my mum said not cold at all, so didnt prepare o.0

zidane got this damn cute muffler lah. i went to cope and took pic.

hahas. me and my zilian nature xPP

at the third night, it was the grand final for 'BE A STAR' singing competition.

which was the main reason we were there for.

candy and andy are both in the finals. i think thats a super big accomplishment lah.

there are people from china, malaysia and singapore, and they actually managed to make it to top 22.

thats very power okay.

the competitors are all damn good lah.

candy and andy did damn well. andy's dance is nth to say de lor.

candy improved damn alot..

but the results were a little out..

candy and andy were supposed to be in top 7 but end up none.

instead andy got a best performer =.=

kelong ah!! expected lah. nevermind.

GREAT JOB GUYS!

some pics:

my room -.-

me and zidane

saw this at a gift shop. isnt that just so true =XX

after genting, my family set off for alorstar, at the borders of malaysia.

one of my relatives getting married. so laoshi left for singapore first.

always thought we going penang, but wrong!

alor star is quite a peaceful place.. the life there is quite slow paced.

no signs of stress one.. they can afford to entertain us the whole day sia.

but not much entertainment...

the people there are damn friendly..

got damn freaking fat... every meal damn fantastic lah.

their food damn nice, eat damn alot..

ahhh. can die lor.

everything was peaceful EXCEPT for that few freaking annoying aunties.

now i see the another face of humans. the ugly side.

politics can actually exist between siblings..

they totally lost my respect for them. tsk. disgusted.

somehow, i cant stand seeing my sis get bullied by others though im nt close to her.

nevermind. rahh. heck.

like what my mum said, its time to learn how to learn how to tolerate..

thats damn hard for me. o.0

still learning. lazy to update liao.

some pics of alorstar...

bored.

my... niece? cute!

toilet. o.0

chickens!!

more chickens -.-

another chicken x]

hahas. sayonara!

2007-12-12T20:47:00.000-08:00

good morning. okay.. afternoon.
one day before i leave for malaysia "truly asia". xDD

but he left before me >.<
just left bah, just took off also.
bon voyage x))
so gonna miss you, ~~mydear~~
5hours of talk is so not enough can..
already starting to miss you. ahh.
i siao le.

cheng, its my turn now =.=
hope he returns safelyy.
just another 10 days.. jyjy.

2007-12-12T06:54:00.000-08:00

hallo people!
thanks xiaodidi for the comment. wahahahahs.
let me blog from yesterday bahs. xDD

yesterday went for hiphop!
and... Clare never go, so.... BOB TOOK OVER!
hahas. bob damn cute lah, like to see him dance..
his style is nice but looks wierd.
found out that his body isolation damn good lah.
his head and leg can move in diff directions at the same time. tsk.
yesterday was a little lyrical lah. not my forte =XX
but better compared to patrick's class.
still sweat damn alot though...
kena cheated by timothy!! end up spending $6.90 on subway T.T
i no money liao sia....

today... ehhh. nothing much lah.
bored then went out with mum to pick sis.
hmm. sounds boring too. err..
wanted to go shopping de!!! but...
hais. nevermind.
but somethign good!!
i managed to control my temper xDD
yay!!!

dear going to china le!! T.T
im so gonna miss you lahh. it will be damn torturous can.
always like that de. u leave earlier come back later...
x(( must take care.. hahas.

2007-12-10T07:03:00.000-08:00

WOOHOOO!~ finally blogger is working in my internet explorern XDD
wahahahahahs. okay. hyper liao =XX

today cheng and junhao came!
poorr cheng so lonely.. next will be me? =XX
hahas. u know i know. wahahahahas.
cheng's com was down. created some 'poem' which sent us laughing like free.
all started with his uncle, a technician, which will help fix her com..
inside joke lah.
went spamming snickers blog. hope cheng dont delete my taggs.
maybe she will, cos theres only THREE names.
and after MINE IS GONE, TWO is left. got it?
now i seriously think my dog love guys, BUT not gay!
hahas. meowmeow(my dog) pee-ed on junhao's leg!!!!
wahahahahahahhas. cause... you should know huh.

after that went for JAZZ CLASS!
samantha didnt come cause she got workshop, so another lady took over.
she was nice too! but the warm up abit de torture lah.
stll not as hiong as samantha's one.
now my leg like tearing can. she made up split ( i cant so just go as muchas u can)
then reach forward. normally i cant go that low, last week was lyk low enough, like 5cm more?
this week MY NOSE TOUCH THE FLOOR!! goodness. but after that.. oooooooh.
think im getting more flexible xDD
whats good is that she teach more spins. learnt quite alot, maybe cause warmup shorter.
samantha's warmup is killer man! but still rawks!
today abit the giddy lah. did spins none stop.
woo! did alot stupid action, damn funny. I LOVE JAZZ!!
im so gonna work hard! yeah!
and... I FOUND OUT MORE ABOUT THE DANCE SCHOLARSHIP LE!
its freakin cool can. saw some scholars today...
they were wearing their team shirt. infront got 'PERFORMER'.
damn seh can.. i also want!!
but need 3 more years cause must at leats 17 years old x((
but nevermind! i shall make use of this 3 years to improve my dance!
yay!! the scholars must every week must attend at least 8hr of dance class.
thats damn nice can. what dance also can learn.. woah.
SCHOLARSHIP WAIT FOR ME!!!

tomorrow going for HIPHOP! yay!
i change to clare's class le. think better for me bahs.
wahahahahahs. so gonna sweat it out!
yippppeeee!

2007-12-06T04:51:00.000-08:00

Hallo people!!!
okay, im starting to update my bloggie! good sign, wahahahahs.
went out with my dear cuzzie PEARLYN. sexy wor.
hahas. been so long since we've met..

on my way there saw jeremy bro at mrt.
wasnt sure it was him then never talk.
but... IT WAS HIM!! just confirmed with him.
he couldnt recognise me!!! wahahhahahahahahahahahahhas.

met pearlyn at bugis mrt. not exactly >.<
met her at bugis bus stop.
hahas. she got loads of friends... hmmm. hahas.
went shop shop. once again, my excitement for shopping was switched on.
like a girl from kampong >.< hahas.
the clothes damn cheap lor.. zz.
make me stupid buying those expensive clothes last time.
met some of her friends, or perhaps many...
hahas. bought clothes!!!!
one blue top (wanted to buy long ago) and one black long cardigan!!!!
omg. damn cheap lah. 10 bucks each!
hahas. very happpi!!!! crazy liao.

then on the way back to bugis junction, waseh, saw somebody.
HE was wearing starbucks uniform.
HE was wearing a christmas hat.
HE was holding a 'bell'.
HE was ringing the bell.
he is none other than............. ~~SANTA CLAUSE~~ not... XIANFU!!!
i damn freaking shock! hahas.
starbucks was giving out free drinks.
he look damn freaking cute lah! hahas.
then act polite somemore, like the first time knw him.
tsk. fake de lah! =XX hahas.
xianfu! intro job give me sia... lalalas.

hmm. another conflict between my mum and my sis..
hais. always like that.
is that part of the life cycle?? guess so.
perhaps then the role of a sister should be played.
talked to her, guess she took in some of it. hopefully.
time for her to grow up. for US to grow up.
thats what a family is about.

anyways. i still love them!

2007-12-05T08:19:00.000-08:00

woah, it seriously has been some time since i updated my blog =xx
sorraye! xD gort people complain liao la.
past few days quite sian nor.. not very enriching.
but! this saturday got REUNION for council!!
all the seniors are coming back!!! yippeee aye aye!!
miss them.. hahas.

tomorrow going out with pearlyn!!!
miss her!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS.
should be go bugis bahs. ahahas. finally!!

aiya, hope i continue to update.
hee xDD

what doesnt kil you, makes you stronger..
what doesnt split us up, makes us closer..
i love you..

2007-11-29T08:10:00.000-08:00

okay, sorry for being so crazy cos im seriously going crazy.
i cried like 2 times today? but dont worry, not depression.
one is kena hit, second is too touched by a story.

but these 2 days like super easy pissed lor.
i dont like it man. must rewind.

okay, let me start from 3days ago, or longer?
yeah. nevermind.
went to junhao's house for sleepover!
nicenice! slept damn little.
actualli wanted to try watching final fantasy but jammed.
yeah! x)) i dont dare watch also o.0
sick sia. they go watch saw3.. tsktsktsk.
many funny funny things happened and observed.
lalalas. only the people involved knows. xPP
but damn sorry to trouble junhao's maid/auntywani!
hahas. we are NOISY!

COUNCIL COHESION
yeah! thanks to all the sec1s for organizing cohesion day!
thanks for putting in so much effort!
the games were cool. hahas.
but the location seriously...... >.<
i took like 2 buses and still couldnt reached.
at te end took a taxi down =.= lame right.
knew it! im a super "luchi(roadidiot?)" can.
took quite long to start fire. but thanks to the 12 hot ones, the fire was able to start.
(ME and RANJINI, she claims to be hot.. jkjk x))
think the food was... NICE! of course lah.
see who barbecued it mah ^^.
the beach is freakin nice at night...
sit there.. feel the breeze... think of stuff... nice.
can really let you feel relaxed and calm lor.
go there with a loved one at night os the best liao lor.
it was also ROD for seniors, so gonna miss them.
especially yannqi and subeer.. they damn funny de can.
will miss all of you!!
WHY SPOUSE NEVER GO!!!!!!

okay. TODAY.
went to wisma with pamela and cheng to change pam's phone.
then went to fareast. manymany stuff there.
but not very cheap lor.
I WANNA GO BUGIS!!! there the things cheap and more interesting lah.
maybe blogshop better hor.
then went back sch.. frisbee again.
nevermind. i buying clorthes at blog! yeah.

okay. now is night..
which means... nevermind.

2007-11-29T08:07:00.000-08:00

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!
I VERY 闷 SIA...... rahhhhh.
pissed by alot alot of things. cant sleep also..
hais. any supernocturnal one can accompany me?
im seriously bored at night lah.
xbhdslzgq78weyhdu$%W%YKFGBjhkjhfgvyuhhoug*uogiugvygiyT&ft
kill me!!!!!!!! rahrahrah.......
siiao le lah me. heck. crazy!!!!!

2007-11-24T02:08:00.001-08:00

boo! long long time never blog le.
quite tired.. let me recall what happened.
okay.

YESTERDAY
went to martin's house to bake! its so nice to have an oven at home luhh..
cheng and junhao were there also.
we baked CHOCOLATE CAKE and OATMEAL RAISIN COOKIES!!
damn nice can!! mamamiiiiaaaaa.....
nice. my mum seem a little tempted to buy an oven home le >.<
winkwink*.

TODAY
ANDERSON SEC OPEN HOUSE 2007!!
a little disappointing though, not as good as last year.
at least last year got carnival, rmbring myself getting wet.
heelo, people pay me to get wet. they practically throw at the cups above me which contains water luhh. xDD
thats damn fun. but sad that this year dont have when we are seperating class le. x(( sort of a waste lah.
carried like dont know how many cartons of water with hidir.
half dead lah can. we were both dripping wet after that.
even my pinafore was wet. imagine that lah...
did hall duty.. quite relax lah. but sian also.
i wanna patrol xPP walk here walk there. lalalas.
saw weilun and gang. waseh, all golden/orange hair sia.
look like monkey =XX joking nia. dont come hoot me lah.
they go hall sit there dont know do what.
hahas. but quite funny lah.
junhao also brought his daughter here, kimberly.
though she already DSA-ed to another school.
for fun nia. hahas. okay, wasnt that fun after all.

after duty, went to hub to find the rest.
damn freaking tired. left with like half a life, or perhaps a quarter.
no energy le.. go there slack slack awhile.
then went for lesson.

tired. tired. tired. and i cant get to sleep!!

i believe you.
i love you.

2007-11-22T07:24:00.000-08:00

hiie people. back again.
congrats to all p6s who did well for PSLE x)).
today went back to pri sch but missed the show.
didnt get to see the p6s collect results.
come to ANDERSON!! yeah!

today was actually 6/12'o5 class gathering but half trhe time was wasted by helping the teachers move their places =.=
always the case huh.
after that played ultimate frisbee.
i suck at frisbee can... never liked frisbee =X
like it only when i play with noobs :XX
after that iva and me quite sian-ed, pulled pamela with us to hougang point xPP
slack slack slack. saw big big doll! eeyyoorr(?) damn cute!!!
i want!!!!!!!!!!! hahas. damn cool lah.
who wanna buy that for me???? hahas.
then after that the rest joined us.

went to playground to slack. or to say SPIN!!!
im a GOOD SPINNER :D hahas.
spinned for quite long lor. but after that got a little giddy.
just feel like vomitting lah. not as good as last tym le x((
sent everyone home one by one. hahas.
i think thats damn cool lah can.
but mum picked me home =.= hahas.

~~actually i really do care, in fact i mind.~~
im still not totally convinced to be honest.
i mind sharing you with anyone else, even just a little..
say im a perfectionist, i want you whole.
or i'd rather not at all.
but are you? or is she still in your heart?
i'm selfish. so sorry, thats me.
i need the sense of secure.

2007-11-20T05:02:00.000-08:00

BOO! hahas. im back.
rare sia, so active in blogger. but wont last long =XX
today missed 2/4 class outing T.T ; sorry guys.
especially julia who said i pangseh her xPP

this morning awoken by the 'WONDERFUL' drilling sounds made by the BANGLAHS!! raaaahhhh. very irritating can.
like my whole house gonna collapse. zz.
cant even bathe in peace... every 5sec gotta cover my ears.
or else i seriously think i will go deaf lah. irritating!
GIVE ME BACK MY PEACEFUL SLEEP!

around 12noon met cheng at compass point.
actually want to go eat FISH SOUP! de, but br-unch ate le.
no appettite. yeah! i like that. =XX
wanted to look for weijie as he said he was working at metro BRA COUNTER!
okay fine, between household item and bras + panties =/
but he wasnt there. i think they like to put guys there.
we saw a guy there but not weijie. so that was the conclusion i made.
cheat my feeling sia.

after that, junhao met up with us.
we went to get a dabao a bowl of fishsoup and went back to hgp.
play frisbee? or watching the rain?
okay, quite sian-ed. plus the guys were playing with fire AGAIN, which i seriously detest lah. dont know why.
just hate the sight of it. pissed, i went to sleep.
didnt manage to sleep also lah. irritating!!!
then we went to playground!!! nice xD!
got spinning 'machines'!!! my favourite sia. like the teacup at genting which i use to play.
i know im wierd. but i like getting giddy which i normally dont =/
SPIN SPIN SPIN! maybe thats why i took up jazz class.. yes.
they played frisbee there.
i was sort of sian-ed once again and smsed my DEAR DIDI cherbeng!
hahas. so long never see him le.
super glad that he will still be staying in anderson. dont wanna lose such a nice bro lah.
he come find me, i cope 2 toblerone from him xPP
wahahahahahhahahas. had a nice chat. always the case :D
love my didi so much! muacks!

then after that gotta leave for a TREAT FROM AUNTY SUSAN!
she struck 4D with my house number lah.
$80 000 sia! thats liek super alot can.
but sad lah, my mum didnt buy.
we went ajisen ramen. i think there got super lot msg!
now damn freakin thirsty lah. hongkong one nicer! yumyum.
ate to our fill, of course. xD
but i think the food was just not fated to be with us.
my mum vomited everything out, while i diahoerra-ed everything out.
zz =.= lame right. but nevermind. i feel happier.
crazy de =XX

something wonderful... I BOUGHT ENGLISH ASSESSMENT!
its for 'o' levels de. hardworking hor.. *winkwink*
im quite determined to do well next year.
i will work hard de!!! JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!
and im gonna make sure my sis's maths improve!
noble hor? cause i seriously think my sis can do it when i can.
yeah! nice nice!

2007-11-19T06:09:00.000-08:00

oizxch4wkhipesdhypoj%^&GCXDRW#$&UOFGTR%&TUIOgfrt5ru!!!!!!!!!!!!!@
rrahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i freakin pissed now can.
grrr. stoopid. so tired come back le still cnt rest.
help my mum check for some crap car stuff.
cant find, den still insist that its there. what logic lah!
tell her find herself lah. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
damn tired can. kena scold somemore.
come home haven't bathe help her liao. shut up lah..............
ignore ignore ignore pls. zz.
nidda bathe. cool down...........

2007-11-18T22:00:00.000-08:00

hello peeps! good 'morning' at 12noon??
hahas. last night wad .. err.. so so lah.
good and bad? many wierd dreams. hmm..
awoken by 2 monsters! rahh. spoil my beautiful sleep lor.
later not preety they die. =XX bhb sia.
nothing much actually. wanted to shop online but dont know theprocedures.
anyone can coach me? the clothes are really nice sia.
WHO WANNA GO SHOPPING?? anywhere, bugis.. fareast.. kbox?
sms me or call me lah! i veh bored can..
i want new clothes lah... gigigaga!

2007-11-18T10:08:00.000-08:00

okay, so my sixth sense wasnt so bad after all.
that was a smirk for your info. zz.
i know its wierd to post at such a time.. but, who cares.

once again, seriously SCRAMBLED.
why does this always happen. when i think its the end, another split route will appear and make me make another choice.
when i start to lose hope and make myself stand up again, a tree collapse and push me back on th ground.
its sort of ridiculous, doesnt it sound?
maybe if sometime ago you asked me that question, i may jus give you a definite yes. but now...
i can only say i dont know. i really dont know.

maybe i can give you my answer here. i hope.
okay, i admit kay? my feelings were back, strong.
i sensed that something was different but i could not be sure.
okay, now i dont know how to continue.
fast forward... a news broke out and everythng split into 2.
i didnt know what to do. my senses are wrong?
or are you just playing? i dont know.
you are always giving people false feelings. is that cause you are too nice, or am i too sensitive?
i sort of tired of it. its torturous.
i consoled myself, convinced myself like some saleswoman.
and when i got back on my feet, and determined to start everything anew, another news broke out.

so tell me, what am i suppose to do now?
what answer should i give you?
actually, i've thought of it for a very long time..
the possibility.. the outcome.
be it anything happened or not, i cant give you any promises.
i cant be sure that the same thing wont happen again. you seriously gota understand that.
next, our feelings towards each other.. is it just we miss the feeling too much? or is the feeling real? are we just taking each other as substitutes?

a moment ago, you are so bent on waiting for her;
the next moment you say you wanna give up, and tell me these.
what am i suppose to think?
and minutes ago, i was so bent on starting afresh.
put down seriously EVERYTHING and move on like a plain piece of paper. im just confused. someone clear my confusions and doubts pls, i beg u...

KOR, WHERE ARE YOU.
why you offline so fast de..... zz.

okay, i didnt give a definite ans.
i guess i need more time.. sorry.

2007-11-18T04:08:00.000-08:00

hello again. okay, this is seriously spamming.
thanks guys for relinking x))
kor: you chao ah beng lah. i scared you ah xPP
today a nice nice day. finally went back for hipop.
finally woke up before 10am. nice nice.
then went to grandma's house, which i was not very pleased with.
but overall was quite ok. michael came, rare guest.
then we talked, had quite some fun.
talked to yilei too! goodness, how many years never chat le?
nice too lah.
but the end was quite bad. hahas. nevermind.
secret. but fullstop was drawn.
end of story x)
thanks to my dear kor for being there. you promise never to pangseh de hor.
or else i hoot you! jkjk nia lah. wher dare.
some people "tong ah tong ast" de wor. scared...

2007-11-17T19:13:00.000-08:00

yeah! i got a nice kor!!!
thanks kor, for helping me and consoling me, hahas.
but lame sia. "i go help you scold him." scold got use sia.
hahas. kor damn cute luhh!

hahas. is you give me de hor. but lydat also more shuaii lah hor.

2007-11-17T18:48:00.000-08:00

hello. i think my blog is empty. therefore, i shall start spamming!
yeah.. okay, quite a nice mood today x))
STOOOPID HORNY KOR!!! retarded!!
(hope he doesnt see this. kor, i didnt mean it xPP)
who tell him make me angry last night. rahh!
okay lah. at least i knw he has brains.
sian. kor not playing maple le? anyone wanna play with me??
or else it would be damn freakin boring la.

jazz rocks can! x))
thats random.

2007-11-17T08:39:00.000-08:00

phew.. finally done. i'm too lazy =XX
lazy to type le lah! hahas.
anw, wanna thank all who helped organised TWOFOUR class chalet!
GREAT JOB DONE!! love you guys too much.
i think we are so much more bonded after this chalet.
but we all gotta part T.T..
hope most of us can still be in the same class.

i got into C2 for your info.
phy+chem+puregeog+litelec+amaths+emaths.
but we'll be in random, so.....
pray for the best...

and... i think i got a super bad temper =/
when im in a bad mood, im seriously bad can.
bt when im ok, im realli okay.
and thats not very good...
i get angry easily.. hmm. i'll try.

至少我尽力而为；相信我。

2007-11-17T05:42:00.000-08:00

long time since i blogged. :( sorry.
lazy. but started a new blog. need a change luhh.
something has been bothering me for very long, the whole day.
seriously, i dont know what we're doing.
was that meant to be, or just me thinking too much?
i rather not know. as truths are always cruel.
nevermind. im semi-conscious, dont know what im typing also. =XX
please dont do it cause you miss it. at least let me know.
i will appreciate it. x))

you've got me all messed up. so what now?